I'm in my workout clothes

but I can't find my shoes. How frustrating! I have 2 pairs of running shoes and I can't find either of them! And I can't very well run without shoes. Hmph.

I might have to settle for some Wii yoga, though it doesn't exactly get my heart rate up. Again, I say Hmph.

Because I'm going on another full week of hormone induced depression and it's affecting my life, I called the Dr. today and asked her to fill the low dose Zoloft prescription she offered a couple months ago. I have to get a handle on this, and It's not working by my sheer will power alone, obviously. I'm sleeping a lot, eating sporadically (nothing consistent, sometimes I'm not hungry all day long and don't eat until dinner, and sometimes I'm eating simply for comfort - neither of which is healthy), finding excuses to avoid going out, not answering my phone because I don't want to talk to people... I can't live like this. So I called in the prescription. Hopefully that means I'll be able to start functioning a little better and at least get into some healthy patterns.

On the plus side, I did go back to Aerial Dance after 2 weeks of missing, so that's good. I'm also at least THINKING about exercise (even if I can't find my shoes!), so I'm taking that as a good sign, too.

As for a food log...

This morning Leif asked me to put away the spritz cookies he and Ellie made last night. Of course, I divided them into a dozen per baggie and ended up with 3 strays. You know I ate them. Hello, unhealthy breakfast! Thankfully they're small, and didn't seem to bother me at all. No headache, no dizzy. I ate lunch at about 11:20 and it consisted of 2 small corn tortillas filled with chili (the salty, turkey variety from a can) and cheese. This is one of my new favorites. Easy, not too much in the way of carbs, and they're small, so I can eat 2 and not have too much. I'm drinking a liter of carbonated water right now to add to that.

As for how I feel, I feel like I'm in a fog, like I'm made of glass and could break at any moment. I think of what I ought to be doing and can't focus long enough to get a task done. I have bunches of projects started all over the house and I can't seem to move forward with any of them. I really is like I'm walking around in the fog, trying to get my brain to reach out and focus on anything, but nothing is happening. It's very frustrating. I feel sluggish, but not so much that I didn't get out of bed, change the sheets, start a load of laundry, take a shower, and get into my workout clothes. Still, the fact that I find that an accomplishment by noon is disturbing. I did work on cutting exercises with Ellie, so I suppose that's something, too. In any event, I'd like to go back to feeling like me, instead of feeling like someone has replaced me with a slug. I'm tired of slithering around my house, leaving a trail behind me. I'd like to go back to getting stuff done early in the morning and having the rest of the day for myself or to do things with Eliana. That's what I'd like. Instead, I stay in bed until 9 and consider getting a shower and getting dressed accomplishments. I'd like to find the power button again. It's like someone put me in hibernation mode!

So... that's how I feel. I'm going to go take my vitamins now and see if it helps. =D