Still going....

I'm sitting here eating a tomato. That's good, right? Especially since I REALLY want to be eating the candy I know is in the snack drawer? Yes, I am exercising moderation. I figure I always quit tracking calories after the second day, so I'm sticking with it today. Even though I really just wanted today to be a junk food day. *sigh* I had two oatmeal cookies for breakfast. Susan Beth brought them. They were good. For lunch I finished off the carrots and ate a tomato. I'll probably eat more, but for right now I'm good. And I'm at 400 calories so far today. I should start thinking NOW about what I want for dinner, and how to squeeze as many vegetables into it as possible. Hmmmm....

I stayed under 1500 calories yesterday, but still only got about half my water in. I, again, was aiming for about 1300 calories, but then I had some candy with Leif while we watched a show. Mmmm... candy. It's a downfall of mine unless I build it in to my calorie count.

Okay... off to clean a bit and think about what's for dinner!

Day two and counting....

We ended up having Costco pizza last night. Leif brought it home and I was thankful not to have to make dinner with the headache I had. He also brought home Frappuccino since I needed the carton to make a template for my class tonight. And we all know what that mean.... I drank one. So I didn't stay under 1300 calories like I'd planned, but I did stay under 1500 calories, and that is still within my range (1200-1550) set by Spark People. So I'm okay with that. I didn't get all my water in, but I did drink a liter, and that's better than nothing, which is how much water I was drinking before. I did get 5 servings of fruits and vegetables in yesterday, though!

Today is day two. I hope to stay under 1500 calories again and drink ALL my water today. So far I've had a frappuccino for breakfast (hey - I need the empty bottles for class tonight!) and that's it. But whatever this illness I have is seems to have an upset stomach phase to it, too, and that hit this morning. Greaaaat. Now I'm hungry again but need to figure out what to eat that won't make things worse. Hmmm... We'll see.

Sick

The calorie counting is going so far so good today. It even warmed up enough that I could have taken Ellie on a walk. Unfortunately, my temp is back up to 101 and the headache has settled in. So we didn't go on a walk. Ergh. I would just like to get better.

Now... what for dinner? So far it's 4:30 in the afternoon and I'm at 400 calories, leaving me with 800 for dinner. So... what for dinner?

Day 1. Again.

I think it's time that I admit that I can't lose weight without counting calories. And I can't count calories in my head. And so I am back to Spark People. Again.

I hate that I start and stop, start and stop... I'd just like to stick with it and get rid of the weight. I've been fighting with the same 5 lbs since January. Up and down, up and down. Just like a yo-yo. It's frustrating.

Today the sun is shining and I'd love to go for a walk. But it's supposed to be in the 30's all day and I've been sick. I've had a fever since Saturday. It was 103 Sunday. Yesterday it wavered between 100 and 102. Today it is 100 again so far. So I don't think it's a good idea to go for a walk in the cold. Probably not a good idea to go for a walk at all. I should take it easy. But I will record my calories starting today. Because today is Day 1. Again.

Aspartame...

Right now I am drinking a Diet Dr. Pepper. Mmmm. The taste of Dr. Pepper without the calories. It's glorious. And it's all because of aspartame. Actually, most of my "diet" foods contain aspartame. That South Beach drink mix with fiber I bought? Sweetened with aspartame. My sugar free jello? Aspartame. Fat free / sugar free pudding? Yup, aspartame. It's what keeps me eating the "cheater" foods I like without cheating on my calories. It's what gets me through my diet.

And then I read this.

WOW. That might just convince me to quit consuming aspartame. Maybe it's worth the extra calories to eat the sugared pudding and jello. Maybe it's worth adding my own fiber powder to our standard drink mix instead of using the South Beach stuff. Maybe it's worth changing my tastes to drink a diet drink sweetened with Splenda instead of aspartame.

And maybe it's worth being a little more careful about what I put on my daughter's plate, my husband's plate, and my own.

Feeling hungry...

So I'm going to drink the rest of my liter of water before I eat lunch. It gets my water in and keeps me from eating just because I'm thirsty.

A new day.

Today is a new day.

Today I am going to take control.
Today I am going to eat well. (and I'm not going to eat that last cookie)
Today I am going to record what I eat.
Today I am going to run. (for the first time in February)
Today I am going to work on picking up the house.
Today I am going to do my Bible Study.
Today I am going to smile.
Today I am going to live.

Because today is a new day and I am free.