Can I post my food log here? We'll see...

CALORIES

CARBS

FAT

PROTEIN

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Breakfast:

egg white, fresh, 2 large 34 0 0 8 Clementine, 1 serving 35 9 0 1 Dannon Activia Peach Yogurt, 4 oz., 1 serving 110 19 2 5

Breakfast TOTALS: 179 28 2 14

Lunch:

Pizza Hut Big New Yorker Pepperoni Pizza (1 slice), 1 serving 370 41 16 17

Lunch TOTALS: 370 41 16 17

Dinner:

Turkey Bean Enchiladas, 1 serving (view recipe) 323 43 9 16 100% Blueberry Juice, 1 cup 100 24 0 0 Strawberries, fresh, 4 extra large (1-5/8" dia) 32 8 0 1 Land O Lakes Ultra-Pasteurized Whipped Heavy Cream (sweetened w/ Splenda), 2 tbsp 20 0 2 0

Dinner TOTALS: 475 75 12 17

Snack:

Nature's Select Dry Roasted Soynuts, 1 oz 130 9 6 12 Famous Amos Bite Size Chocolate Chip Cookies (1 package), 56 gram(s) 280 38 13 3 Dryer's Fruit Bar, Strawberry, 1 serving 80 21 0 0

Snack TOTALS: 490 68 19 15

Evening Snack:

None

Evening Snack TOTALS: 0 0 0 0

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			CALORIES	CARBS	FAT	PROTEIN
			1,514	212	49	63
			1,200 - 1,550	163 - 236	32 - 56	60 - 127
			0 - 36	0 - 24	0 - 7	0 - 64

Today is a new day...

... and I met with my personal trainer this morning. She did the pinchy-pinchy fat test to calculate my body fat and we talked about my goals and where I want to be. Now she's writing up a 90 day plan for me and going to come over on Thursday and walk through all the exercises I should be doing to make sure I am doing them correctly. I am supposed to be tracking my calories daily for right now and sticking somewhere between 1200 and 1500 calories. I'd like to lose 20 lbs by my birthday (really, I'd like to lose 30 lbs by my birthday, but we're going to start with 20!) in September.

So... today is a new day. I recorded my food, and I'm starting again.

Oh, and I'm at 135, according to the scale this morning.

Just reporting in...

I hopped on the scale this morning and I'm down to 131.2! =D That's 4 lbs down so far, and I hope it keeps going!

I'm BA-ACK!!!

Career Conference was AMAZING. Absolutely amazing. And when I got home, I was high as a kite. I woke up the next morning, energized and excited to get back to routine. I stepped on the scale and... lo and behold...

I lost 1.5 lbs at Career Conference!

No kidding. I didn't particularly watch what I ate, but we took our own food to cut down on costs, so we didn't end up eating out much. I ate 2 meals out. I shared some fish&chips with my friend Tam at Pike's Place Market, and then we all went out to The Cheesecake Factory after CC. I had fried zucchini and steamed edamame for dinner (it's what sounded good!) and shared a slice of cheesecake with Andrea. I did drink some sugary coffee drinks, but mostly I behaved myself! I even got up one morning and went down to the gym and worked out at the hotel! =)

So now I'm down to 133. I just walked 1 hour 10 minutes on the treadmill while making calls and doing computer work, and I plan to hit the gym tomorrow morning, taking advantage of the $1 childcare.

Progress is good.

New Weight...

I hopped on the scale yesterday morning... 135.2.

Ouch.

But you've got to start somewhere, and that's where I'm starting, I guess. I did my best to eat better yesterday, and it went pretty well. I did end up stress snacking after Ellie went to bed, but there just wasn't that much time to get in too much damage at that point, so that was good. For breakfast I had a banana, lunch was an apple, string cheese, and an apple gouda sausage, snack was another string cheese and a yogurt, dinner was tenderloin and a little bit of wild rice. So I was short on veggies, but the snacking didn't put me completely over the edge, which was nice.

This morning I got on the scale again, just to continue the habit and it said 134.4.

Hooray!

Working the numbers...

So... it seems like the last time I successfully lost weight, it was a matter of vanity. I wanted to get down to 115 by my 10 year reunion, and I did. And while I'm not suggesting vanity is a virtue, perhaps I should try to employ it to my benefit again.

I will be performing an Aerial Dance piece with a couple other dancers in June. I do NOT want to be the fat girl on stage, so maybe that will help motivate me? Dunno. It's worth a shot, though...

So we'll see where I am when I hop on the scale (provided I remember...), but I think I'll just assume I have 15-20 lbs to lose to get there. That's in approximately 11 weeks. That means I need to lose... about 1.5 lbs a week.

So.... 1.5 lbs is 5,250 calories I need to reduce per week.
If I walk on the treadmill and burn about 300 calories in a session, and do that 3x a week, that is 900 calories. If I do it 5x a week, that's 1,500 calories.
That takes me down to 3,750 calories I need to reduce per week.
Assuming I know my approximate calorie intake right now, I'd need to reduce it by 550 calories a day to cover that amount, give or take a bit.

I don't know my calorie intake right now.

But I DO know that it includes more sugar free lattes and larger portions than it should. So I guess I can start with that.

More fruits and veggies, more water, smaller portions, more exercise. I've heard it all before. I've said it all before. But I need to make it happen. Now... just how do I do that?

How I've Been...

Lately I've been underwhelmed at the prospect of trying to lose weight, or even get healthy for that matter. I've been discouraged. Frustrated.

I haven't gotten on the scale, for fear of what it might tell me.

I haven't been watching what I eat, really.

I didn't make it to the gym this week, though I did have Aerial Dance Friday AND Saturday.

I DID go for a walk on Monday, which was nice.

I went through 5 outfits this morning trying to find something to wear that didn't make me feel fat. Then I went to church and someone mistook me for being pregnant and asked how I've been feeling.

Discouraged.

I took a pregnancy test just in case, and it mocked me. It was one of those digital ones that says "pregnant" or "not pregnant" so there's no confusion. It blinked an hour glass as I waited, just like it was supposed to, but after 3 minutes it gave the follow result... NOTHING. Blank screen. Stupid test. I took another (the 1-or-2 line kind) a few hours later. Negative. Well, so much for that excuse for why I felt like a whale today!

My motivation is low. In most areas right now. I need to finish cleaning my craft room, but can't seem to bring myself to do it. I need to call customers, but keep watching the time dance by without picking up the phone. I need to fold the laundry, but there it is, still piled.

Frustrated.

I'm not sure how to manage my time better. I'm not sure how to manage my food better. But I've got to do something, I think, because this is an irritating cycle I'm finding myself in.

Tomorrow is Monday. Maybe I'll step on the scale.