Monday, January 11, 2010

A new week...

Today is the start of a new week, and I'm finally getting around to updating this blog. As of right now (8:15 am) I have gotten up, done my Bible study, gone to Shannon's for some prayer/accountability and Pilates, weighed in, walked/run on the treadmill, lifted weights, made the bed, taken my vitamins, and I'm drinking a smoothie (strawberries, kiwi, grapefruit, banana - just blended together, nothing else added) for breakfast.

I weighed in this morning at 133.8. Not good, but I know my starting point now, I guess. I'm considering joining a 10 week biggest loser group that starts tomorrow (no money involved, it's just a matter of committing to it), but whether I do that or not, I definitely want to work on losing weight! Now that my hormones appear to be balanced out, I am ready to get back in the game.

I have about 30 lbs I want to lose. If I go by the 10% guideline, that leaves me with about 13 lbs to lose before my first milestone.

133.8 - 10% - 13lbs
120.8 - 10% - 12lbs
108.8 - 10% - 10lbs

If I lost 10% three times, that takes me to 98lbs, just under where I want to be. So really, I have more like 10% twice and 5% once there... all in all, I would love to get down to 105. That's my target goal. I would be STOKED if I could lose the first 13 lbs by the end of the biggest loser (if I do it... I haven't decided yet) in 10 weeks. That would be GREAT! But I know that it takes more than just wanting to do it for it to get done, so I'm starting by eating and exercising a little better. This morning that means just getting some exercise in (2/3 intervals walking/running on the treadmill for 15 minutes, 15 minutes Pilates, and some light weight and situps. One day at a time. I'm hoping to get more cardio in this afternoon, but I need to clean the family room and dining room / kitchen first, so we'll see.

My word for 2010 isOVERCOME, and this is the year I want to finally overcome this weight that I put on 10 years ago, when we got married. It's time! Please hold me accountable!

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Food Log - 12/12

8:20 - Activia light strawberry
12:00 - 2 corn tortillas with cheese and chicken
3:30 - carbonated water with gingerale flavor (splenda)
5:30 - Soup (chicken fettuccini soup!) and a buttered roll at the cookie exchange - and I managed to avoid eating cookies there!
9:00 - one cookie from the exchange, once I got home in case I was too dizzy to drive - I got sleepy, but not dizzy, so yay!

Friday, December 11, 2009

Food Log - 12/11

6:00 - decaf coffee at Bible Study
8:15 - 7 grain oatmeal sprinkled with Splenda for a little sweet
1:00 - 3 cheese sticks and marinara sauce from the mall (a quick lunch on the go) and diet mtn dew
7:30 - RNT Christmas party dinner - potatoes, carrots, chicken, and a roll, a small glass of white wine, one small dessert (bite size) and 2 cups diet pepsi.

No vitamins or exercise again today. Blerg.

Felt fine, and even got some cleaning in the craft room and some MK phone calls made.

Food Log - 12/10

12/10

9:30 am - 3 Cream Cheese Spritz cookies
11:20 am - 2 corn tortillas with chili and cheese inside
12:00 - 1 liter carbonated water
1:00 - A little headachy, so I at an Activia Light Vanilla.
3:00 - Sugar Free Macchiato from the coffee shop (Splenda)
6:00 - 3 Crackers and a tiny bit of avocado dip while scrapbooking at Kristii's
8:45 - 5 Crackers (the big ones) and 2 wedges Laughing Cow cheese

I never did get my vitamins in, nor did I get exercise in. =( I did get some scrapbooking done, though... =D

Thursday, December 10, 2009

I'm in my workout clothes

but I can't find my shoes. How frustrating! I have 2 pairs of running shoes and I can't find either of them! And I can't very well run without shoes. Hmph.

I might have to settle for some Wii yoga, though it doesn't exactly get my heart rate up. Again, I say Hmph.

Because I'm going on another full week of hormone induced depression and it's affecting my life, I called the Dr. today and asked her to fill the low dose Zoloft prescription she offered a couple months ago. I have to get a handle on this, and It's not working by my sheer will power alone, obviously. I'm sleeping a lot, eating sporadically (nothing consistent, sometimes I'm not hungry all day long and don't eat until dinner, and sometimes I'm eating simply for comfort - neither of which is healthy), finding excuses to avoid going out, not answering my phone because I don't want to talk to people... I can't live like this. So I called in the prescription. Hopefully that means I'll be able to start functioning a little better and at least get into some healthy patterns.

On the plus side, I did go back to Aerial Dance after 2 weeks of missing, so that's good. I'm also at least THINKING about exercise (even if I can't find my shoes!), so I'm taking that as a good sign, too.

As for a food log...

This morning Leif asked me to put away the spritz cookies he and Ellie made last night. Of course, I divided them into a dozen per baggie and ended up with 3 strays. You know I ate them. Hello, unhealthy breakfast! Thankfully they're small, and didn't seem to bother me at all. No headache, no dizzy. I ate lunch at about 11:20 and it consisted of 2 small corn tortillas filled with chili (the salty, turkey variety from a can) and cheese. This is one of my new favorites. Easy, not too much in the way of carbs, and they're small, so I can eat 2 and not have too much. I'm drinking a liter of carbonated water right now to add to that.

As for how I feel, I feel like I'm in a fog, like I'm made of glass and could break at any moment. I think of what I ought to be doing and can't focus long enough to get a task done. I have bunches of projects started all over the house and I can't seem to move forward with any of them. I really is like I'm walking around in the fog, trying to get my brain to reach out and focus on anything, but nothing is happening. It's very frustrating. I feel sluggish, but not so much that I didn't get out of bed, change the sheets, start a load of laundry, take a shower, and get into my workout clothes. Still, the fact that I find that an accomplishment by noon is disturbing. I did work on cutting exercises with Ellie, so I suppose that's something, too. In any event, I'd like to go back to feeling like me, instead of feeling like someone has replaced me with a slug. I'm tired of slithering around my house, leaving a trail behind me. I'd like to go back to getting stuff done early in the morning and having the rest of the day for myself or to do things with Eliana. That's what I'd like. Instead, I stay in bed until 9 and consider getting a shower and getting dressed accomplishments. I'd like to find the power button again. It's like someone put me in hibernation mode!

So... that's how I feel. I'm going to go take my vitamins now and see if it helps. =D

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Going Sugar Free


So... I'm not going completely sugar free, but I am trying to keep added sugar out of my diet. I am having blood sugar issues any time I eat anything sweet, including drinking juice with dinner. So... I'm finding myself looking for substitutes again, since I can't live completely deprived of sweets!! For the most part I've been able to cut stuff out without too many problems, but occasionally I just WANT something sweet, you know? So here's what I've found...

1. Splenda Pop. =D Shasta is my favorite, because it's cheap, and the grapefruit and root beer taste yummy! Diet Hansen's soda is good, too, but hard to find around here and more expensive. Same with Diet Jones.

2. Hunt's Pudding - sweetened with Splenda! Woohoo! This has been a recent favorite. =D

3. Activia Light - I had to switch the yogurt I was eating because Yoplait has too much sugar in it and was making me light headed every time I ate it. So I switched to Activia and picked up the light because it's all Costco carries. Sweetened with sucralose!

4. Great Value enhanced vitamin drink packets - One of the few things I get at Walmart, but a great alternative to regular water.

I'm sure there are others, but these are the ones I've been enjoying lately. Some sugar doesn't bother me, but it's been a crazy ride trying figure out what does and doesn't bother me, and just how much is too much. I'm hoping to get some tests done in January to see what the problem is, but for now I'm just trying to avoid the dizzy.

Monday, November 16, 2009

This IS Me.


ZooMT with Rhiannon, originally uploaded by elizabethwickland.

This is a picture from last weekend. This is what I look like. I'm not huge, but I would like to be smaller. It's true. The thought of trying to lose weight right now overwhelms me, though, so I'm not going to strive for it.

I did talk to my mom today, though, and we're going to encourage each other to walk 3 days a week. That's a start. I walked yesterday. I was going to walk today, but was running to and fro all day and then had company for dinner, so I missed the conference call I usually walk during.

3 times this week. That is my aim. One down, two to go.