Comparison

I am working on this. Today I can honestly say I lived a better day than yesterday. Woohoo! I walked on the treadmill for 45 minutes. I did the things I said I was going to do in my day. I ate relatively well. I weighed myself this morning and I'm at 148.0. My goal for the month is to lose 5 lbs. So far I'm down 3.8 lbs! Of course, fluctuations exists and will continue, but I'm heading in the right direction. Hooray!

This week was a struggle...

I weighed in at 149.0 this morning, so I am down a little, but the biggest struggle this week has been in my mind. I hit a certain point in the day and it's all I can do not to eat everything in sight. Not healthy foods, either! I finished off some chocolate I found. I ate several packages of snacks in one sitting. I didn't exercise. It's been a rough week.

It's hard to make a mental shift, but I have to remember that this is ABOUT making a mental shift, not about the number on the scale. The number on the scale only tells me if what's going on in my head is impacting my body in a positive way.

So here's to a better week. Here's to a week of PURPOSEFUL PLANNING and PERSISTENCE toward my goal.

A week into the new year

Here we are a week into the new year and I am still feeling good about my changing eating habits. While certainly not perfect, I am making progress. I weighed in at 149.2, which means I'm down 2.5 lbs this week. Woohoo! 2.5 lbs to go and I will have made my goal for the month of January!

Let's See...

The week is going well!! I have been weighing myself daily and my weight log looks something like this so far...

1/1 - 151.8
1/2 - 150.6
1/3 - 149.8
1/4 - 147.8
1/5 - 149.6

So I am losing weight, even if it is just the initial water weight, it's something! It shows progress!

I am currently on the treadmill, at 55 minutes, working my way toward an hour of walking today!

Eating is good. I ate a little more than I would have last night since we had date night at the Pickle Barrel, but still it was not too bad. A half turkey and provolone.

In general I am not counting calories specifically, but I am exercising moderation at meals, thinking about what is going into my body and when. I generally eat breakfast, lunch, an afternoon snack, and dinner. I've been drinking about a liter of water a day, and would like to get that up to 2 liters soon.

I'm not kicking myself for what I did yesterday, or planning out what I can do better tomorrow, I am simply working on making the best choices today, right now. So far it seems to be going well.

I actually feel free right now. I am free to make whatever choices I want, knowing that each choice has a consequence, be it good or bad. Do I REALLY want to take a sip of pop? If so, I just need to know that there are consequences. That allowed me to take 2 sips yesterday, but not drink the entire pop or get one for myself. I was happy just having a little of Leif's. I wasn't deprived, I was just... moderate.

I am working on adjusting my thinking as a whole, instead of just working toward balance in only one area of my life. So far it seems to be good. My home is functioning better, it is a more peaceful place, and I have been happier this week. Happier as in content. It's a good place to be.

I'm not promising daily updates or anything here, though prompting me through comments will probably get you an update, and that is good. =D I have learned that one thing I rebel against is the strict schedules I try to hold myself to, so I am working toward a balanced approach of updating when I remember and when it fits with my overall schedule. I am TRULY working on a principle of progress this year, instead of working toward perfection.

Update...

Just hopped on the treadmill for an hour! I walked at a moderate pace and entered stuff into my computer and burned 200 calories. Woot! If I do this every day it would make a difference! The time certainly flies when I'm walking and busily doing something else, too!

January 1, 2012

I should add that this is what I look like on January 1, 2012...

From Fashion Frenzy

That will give me a baseline to compare with as the year goes by!

This is what I'm trying to remember this year. Working out makes me feel good. 

I didn't work out today, but I did at least THINK about what I was eating. =D That's a good way to start out the year, right? Here's a basic breakdown of what I've consumed today:

Breakfast: None. I was in a hurry to get off to church (and we were still late!) so I skipped out on breakfast.

Snack: I ate one teeny tiny roll (think ping pong ball size) at church because curiosity got the better of me and I wanted to know what it tasted like!

Lunch: Leif made me a turkey sandwich on buttered toast for lunch. 

Snack: This is where I fell apart today... I had a banana, which was fine. Then I had an english muffin with butter and jam. That probably would have been fine, too, except that I followed it up with a large bowl of cinnamon swirl cereal. I'm thinking 3pm eating is not my friend.

Dinner: We just finished dinner and I had a baked potato with butter and salt. 

So... my thoughts on food for today are... I shouldn't skip breakfast, but I did. 3pm eating is dangerous for me and where I will likely fall apart during the day. I probably had too much butter, since it was a part of 3 meals/snacks today. Also, I didn't have any vegetables today. Hmmm... 

Now, before I go, I should also say that I actually dared to step on the scale this morning first thing, and kind of wish I hadn't. But I did. I needed to. And I'm pretty sure I weigh now what I weighed at the end of my pregnancy with Eliana. My waist is officially the same size as Leif's, since I had to borrow his old snow pants as mine no longer fit. I officially weigh 151.8 lbs according to my scale this morning, and would really like to see myself 40 lbs lighter by this time next year. I don't know if that will happen, but that's what I would like. I don't have a plan right now for how it's going to happen, but it will have to be a combination of eating better and exercising. DUH. But as for how I'm going to do it, I don't know. I don't really want to count calories or points, and I don't know that I want to lock myself into an unrealistic workout schedule, so I'm trying to figure out what I want to do.  But that's where I am. 

So, now that I'm feeling depressed after that last paragraph, maybe I should go hop on the treadmill for a while. After all, I'm only one workout away from a good mood!!