CAN IT BE?

I am still sick today. Ugh. I hate being sick. I'm such a wimp when I am, and I don't get anything done. And I don't have time NOT to get things done this week!

I weighed myself this morning, and I'm back down to 118.0 today. Now is the telling part... we'll see if I am back up to 120 in the morning! The last two times I have made it down to 118 I have jumped up two lbs the next day. Here's hoping I don't do that again!

On the positive side, though, in an effort to get something done today, I pulled out my dresses to find something to wear to Protocol next Friday. I was pretty afraid I would need to find time to go buy a dress, since most of my dresses are too big (which a good thing) or too small (which is a bad thing)! So I grabbed the two dresses I thought would work style-wise to try on. One was an 8 and one was a 4. I remember the 8 being a tad too big last year, so I set myself up for the impending disappointment and tried on the 4. And.... IT FITS! I'm shocked! The last time I tried to wear it, I practically had to squeeze myself into it, have Leif fight to zip it, and then I couldn't sit down! This time? I got it zipped myself without any problems! Hooray! I'm so excited.

I'm having trouble staying on track eating today, though, because I'm on my 3rd day of soup and tea and I'm just plain tired of it. So I ate some baked beans (which have higher points!) and some fruit snacks (only 50 calories, so 1 point, but they at least have Vitamin C) and I've been drinking pop. I'll have to work to get my water in, but the carbonation just helps clear my throat so much better! So... I'm fighting with it right now. Mostly I'm just fighting with everything because I just want to feel better! (Wow, I'm whiny, aren't I?)

Goal #2 met!

Here I am at the class reunion at 115 lbs. I am so glad I got a new dress for the event, and I love it! Robert fixed it for me by adding a shirred insert to raise the neckline. I can't believe I feel comfortable wearing a halter in public, but I do! Confidence is a beautiful thing!

Texas Weight...

Well, I'm in Texas and have been for over a week. My class reunion is this Saturday and Sunday and I'm pretty sure I made it to the 15 lb weight loss goal. In fact, my mom's scale said I weighed 112 this morning. Now, her scale is different than mine, so it's not as good as it looks. BUT... her scale is 5 lbs less than a Dr. scale, so that would put me at 117 on the Dr. scale. My scale at home is 3 lbs less than a Dr. scale, which would put me at 114 on my scale! That's improvement! We'll see when I get home if I've actually lost weight, but my shorts are DEFINITELY loose, and I'm fitting into size 6 jeans. Mostly I'm just excited that people are noticing that I've lost weight. I feel confident and I feel like I look good. It's been a LONG time since I felt that way! In fact, I'm going to wear a halter dress to my reunion. That's a confidence I haven't felt in a long time!

I'm not counting calories while I'm here in Texas, but I am trying to be at least somewhat moderate in what I eat. I've definitely been splurging more and not eating as healthfully as I do at home, but will be right back on the SparkWagon when I'm home a week from today. So for right now I'm enjoying the break and relishing the fact that I'm a size 6!!

Halter tops and weight loss journals...

Today I worked a little on my weight loss journal some more. I need to finish up weeks 5 and 6 and I'll be caught up. Until Wednesday, that is. But at least I'm making progress and I hope to make some more.

AND.... (speaking of progress).... yesterday Leif and I went out for lunch and errands sans Ellie and I wore a halter top!! I bought my strapless bra just for that shirt, which I ordered from VS a while back. But yesterday is the first time I've been brave or comfortable enough to wear it out in public. And I felt cute!! It was definitely a milestone.

Breakthrough

I had a breakthrough last night. I bought new bottoms for my tankini (the boy short kind) and when I was trying them on I had the bottom of the top rolled up and I realized something:

If I have swimsuit bottoms that cover my belly button, I am comfortable enough right now to wear a two piece.

Amazing. Maybe by the end of the summer I'll actually get a new top to go with the shorts bottoms, but it was an amazing breakthrough for me. Yeah.

New Rule and "thisclose"

First, my new rule:

NO CANDY FESTS RIGHT BEFORE BEDTIME, NO MATTER HOW MANY CALORIES I HAVE LEFT FOR THE DAY.

Last night I had about 200 calories I needed to consume. I'd had plenty of healthy all day, and even had a non-diet pop. So while Leif and I were playing a game, I splurged on some candy and had a little candy fest. It was great.

Until 2:00 this morning when I woke up feeling awful. My tummy was mad at me and I was having CRAZY dreams. I wasn't sleeping well. I got up and did a couple things in the kitchen, then went back to sleep. But when I woke up this morning I was NOT rested.

Yeah... no more candy fests late at night. My body isn't used to that much sugar any more.

And I am "thisclose" to dropping another pound. In fact, I weighed myself this morning 3 times and go 123.8 once, but 124.0 twice. So I didn't cheat and count myself down a pound just yet, but I'm thinking by tomorrow I will be.

Taylor and I are going shopping today, so we should get some walking in, especially if the babies are happy and we get to head to the mall after Michaels and Ross. I'm hoping to find some cute clothes at Ross. Last time I shopped there was for maternity clothes.

My "Someday" Jeans....

... are a size 3. I just checked. I'm about a size 8 right now, so I've got a waaaaays to go.

Little Jeans

When I got dressed this morning, I was lamenting that I didn't have any exercise pants to wear today for our walk. I thought I had a pair of capri jeans in the dresser, so I checked. No capri jeans. I did have a pair of jeans in there, though, that I hadn't worn for a long time. They are girls' jeans, so I didn't think they'd fit, but I gave it a try. Amazingly, they fit perfectly! They're cute AND I don't have to wear a belt with them. My other pairs of jeans are too big and I've just been cinching them tight with a belt. I have to say that it feels great to be wearing smaller jeans again.