Discouraged again....

Yes, I am discouraged. I've been at 123.2 for almost a week - since Saturday. I could almost taste 122 lbs. Until today, that is. This morning I'm at 124.8. What???!! I upped my cardio! I've been good about eating and haven't gone over 1400 calories since I started tracking!! *sigh*

Sometimes it feels like a losing battle. I think it's my body's way of getting back at me for starting this 4 week challenge. Just because I committed to losing 8 lbs in 4 weeks (or doing my best to, at least) my body is refusing. Naughty body.

Last time I was discouraged was at the beginning of the month. Almost 4 weeks ago exactly. Maybe this is a pattern my body goes through. Maybe I gain every 4 weeks or so. I don't know. I'll pay attention next month and see if the same thing happens. But it's still frustrating. Grrrrrr.

I don't think it has anything to do with my cycle. I'm at CD 15 right now and haven't had a temperature rise yet, so I'm not even past O yet. Last time I was 12 days before AF. Right now I'm about 20 days before AF. So confused. I didn't track last cycle because it was right after the surgery and bound to be irregular. So I can't go back and see. But I can pay attention in the future.

Whew! Now that all of that is out of my system, I'm going down to the basement to finish the scrapbooking LO that I was working on this morning and I'm going to drink a bottle of water, then Ellie will probably be awake. If not I will tackle some cardio via aerobics or something. I can't do anything about today's weight, but I can be proactive and work for a better tomorrow.

Breakthrough

I had a breakthrough last night. I bought new bottoms for my tankini (the boy short kind) and when I was trying them on I had the bottom of the top rolled up and I realized something:

If I have swimsuit bottoms that cover my belly button, I am comfortable enough right now to wear a two piece.

Amazing. Maybe by the end of the summer I'll actually get a new top to go with the shorts bottoms, but it was an amazing breakthrough for me. Yeah.

Weigh Day - Week 6

I really, really, REALLY wanted to see the scale go down today. I've been at 123 since Saturday and I was SURE the scale would drop thanks to the extra calories I've been burning the last few days. Not so. Still at 123. *sigh*

4 week challenge

I joined a 4 week challenge today on SparkPeople. My aim is to lose 8 lbs (bringing me down to 115 lbs - my intermediate goal) in the next 4 weeks. That's about 2 lbs per week. I've been doing a good job eating, but I need to work on exercising regularly, more than just walking. So right now I'm going to do some step aerobics and get a jump on my exercise while Ellie's napping.

New clothes, new weight

Yep, 123 lbs this morning. Yesterday I was at 124.0 and today I am down to 123.2. That's a great jump if I do say so myself.

Yesterday I went shopping with Taylor. Ellie was pretty awful, but I did get 4 shirts for under $30 at Ross. I really liked all of them in the store, but when I got home and tried on combinations, there was one that I'd decided to return. When Leif came home I tried them on for him and he thought they were VERY 70's and didn't really like them. So I tried on the one I was planning on returning and he did like that. Go figure. There's only one that I'm not sure about now. It's black and red and white polka dot and very busy. I'm not sure it's "me." So I think I'm going to return it.

Tonight we went to the mall and I stopped by Victoria's Secret for their Semi-Annual Sale. I got a great sports bra (not only does it fit right, but it's comfortable and flattering, too! Amazing...) and a strapless bra. That means I can finally wear that cute halter top I got a while back! Yay! I also got another bra and 3 pairs of underwear... It was quite a splurge!

Before we went to the mall, Leif, Ellie, and I went for a hike. We hiked 3 miles (Middle Cottonwood Creek) in just over an hour and a half. I got a good workout in and even ran the end of the trail. I was proud of myself.

New Rule and "thisclose"

First, my new rule:

NO CANDY FESTS RIGHT BEFORE BEDTIME, NO MATTER HOW MANY CALORIES I HAVE LEFT FOR THE DAY.

Last night I had about 200 calories I needed to consume. I'd had plenty of healthy all day, and even had a non-diet pop. So while Leif and I were playing a game, I splurged on some candy and had a little candy fest. It was great.

Until 2:00 this morning when I woke up feeling awful. My tummy was mad at me and I was having CRAZY dreams. I wasn't sleeping well. I got up and did a couple things in the kitchen, then went back to sleep. But when I woke up this morning I was NOT rested.

Yeah... no more candy fests late at night. My body isn't used to that much sugar any more.

And I am "thisclose" to dropping another pound. In fact, I weighed myself this morning 3 times and go 123.8 once, but 124.0 twice. So I didn't cheat and count myself down a pound just yet, but I'm thinking by tomorrow I will be.

Taylor and I are going shopping today, so we should get some walking in, especially if the babies are happy and we get to head to the mall after Michaels and Ross. I'm hoping to find some cute clothes at Ross. Last time I shopped there was for maternity clothes.

My "Someday" Jeans....

... are a size 3. I just checked. I'm about a size 8 right now, so I've got a waaaaays to go.