Ugh.

I feel AWFUL. I made it through my class tonight just fine, but as soon as I got home, I felt like a truck ran over me. Luckily (though I'm sad about it) the class I was taking tomorrow night got cancelled, so I can have a break and get some early shut eye. I'm going to skip playgroup too, so I should have a lazy day of rest and recoup that will help. I hope.

I went over on points today (21) but stayed under 1300 calories, so I'm calling it good. Actually, I haven't gone over yet, but I think a skinny cow ice cream sandwich would feel a whole lot better on my throat than a bunch of strawberries, so I'm doing it.

Oh no... now that I wrote that I'm having second thoughts! But I need to seat something before I go to bed and my throat is not interested in strawberries, nor my taste buds interested in vegetable soup this late in the evening. I want something light and sweet, that is cool and soothing. Can you hear me debating this with myself? Do I go for what will feel and taste good because I'm sick, or do I pull out a 60 calorie, .4 points can of vegetable soup and eat what will just feel good on the throat??? *sigh*

Why do I suddenly feel like the decision has just been made and not the way I wanted it?

UPDATED: I went for the soup. Bah.
That leaves me at 1148 cals, 23 g. fat, 40 g. fiber, 19.1 points, plenty of fluids, and no exercise, unless you count watching TV from my bed. I don't.

A note on starvation...

(That sounds awful, doesn't it!)

I think the reason WW would caution you to eat ALL of your points is because if you are only tracking points and not calories separately, you could very well not get enough calories in with just the points. That's what I noticed when I started calculating points. I could eat 24 points and not even have 1000 calories in. Your body doesn't go into starvation mode based on points, but based on calories. Because I'm tracking both I know I'm doing okay because I got over 1100 calories. I would actually be scared to do just the WW points for myself, because I know that I would not get enough calories in each day. Because I am still more concerned about getting an appropriate balance of calories, fat, protein, and fiber at this point than I am getting a certain number of points, I think I'm okay. If I get to 19 points in a day and am still under 1100 calories, I will eat more to get up over 1100 calories, even if it means I eat more points. The calories are just more important, especially if I'm exercising.

Thanks for the food for thought!

And I have a feeling pretty much all my calories will come from fluids today, given how much my throat hurts. I will be eating plenty of soup, and lots of hot beverages. Lots of tea again today! Yesterday I had over 3.5 liters of fluids, and I think I'll be around that today again, given that the only time my throat doesn't hurt is when I am sipping a hot beverage!

Sicko

Good news:

I'm down to 118.4 today! (weight)

Bad news:

I'm up to 102.7 today. (temperature)

It's a record!

I think I set a record for myself today! Despite the discouraging start I had, I ended the day with...

1148 calories
15 grams fat
64 grams protein (I've been having a hard time getting even 45 grams in, so this is great!)
32 grams fiber
well over 2 liters of water
over 5 fruits and veggies
and.... (here's the record part...)

only 17.2 points today! I got enough calories AND stayed under on my points!

My throat has been SO sore today I've been chugging hot tea like there's no tomorrow. I've had 5 cups of tea (most of it caffeine free), 1 liter of water, and 40 ounces of calorie free, sugar free, sodium free soda, because the carbonation helps clear the phlegm out of my throat and make it not so sore. So I've had my fluids today! Now if I could only kick what's making my throat hurt so bad in the first place! I think I'm going to drink a cup of soothing tea before I go to bed in just a bit.

On the plus side, Leif and I got to go on a spontaneous date tonight! The neighbors watched Ellie while we went to hear Kevin Connolly give a talk about his photo series, The Rolling Expedition. Afterwards we went to Walmart (because, as Leif reminded me, no date is complete without a trip to Walmart) and while we were there Leif bought me an ice cream cone to make my throat feel better. =D And it DID! It also tasted very good. And I still had room for it in my diet, since I'd saved a little in case we wanted to get a little something on our date!

And then I was rewarded with the right amount of calories and everything else and only 17 points when I returned home and entered my ice cream. What a sweet way to end the day!

Well, Something is better than nothing...

... and I just did something.

Stephanie and I, with our kiddos in the strollers, went for a walk. We walked 2.5 miles and walked for about an hour. It wasn't the fastest pace in the world, but it was a 24 minute mile. And it was something.

WHY?!

Two days ago I was finally back down to 118.0, the weight I was before that two pound jump. Today I weighed myself and... I'm back at 120! I know I didn't eat the best yesterday, but I most certainly did NOT eat 7,000 calories worth, and that is the amount of calories you have to consume over what you burn in order to gain 2 lbs. It's SO frustrating!!

To top it off I woke up at 6:30 this morning just sweating like crazy! I had to get up and come sit out in the living room until I was cool enough to go back to bed, laying on top the covers, and telling Leif not to snuggle with me.

I feel like I JUST got over a slump and now I'm right back in one? WHY?!

Not good. Not good at all.

Today was built on convenience eating during the day, as I was working quickly to get the house all cleaned up after the weekend. Leif called about noon saying he had invited about 10 people over for dinner and, while I didn't have to do any of the cooking, I did need to get things company ready! So I ate what I could quickly and ended up munching and nibbling on things much more than I usually do. Then we had barbecue bison burgers (with cheese!) for dinner, and cheesecake, and cookies. So, yeah... it was not good at all. On top of that I didn't get a walk in because I was trying to get caught up on the laundry, so... We'll just call today done and move on.