I am home again! I knew I would be at the mercy of other people for meals (lunch and dinner yesterday), but I chose to make wise choices and I feel good about that! For lunch there were ham and cheese sandwiches, LOTS of "salads" - you know, the kind with fruit and jello and marshmallows and the like - and LOTS of cake / desserts. I had a sandwich and some baby carrots, and visited with friends and family members. It was wonderful!
Around 3:00 I needed to eat, so Robert and I went to a coffee shop. I was really wanting some fruit, since I hadn't had any yet, and I figured a coffee shop would be a nice place to get a banana or something. I was wrong. I ended up splitting an egg/sausage casserole thing with Robert (I ate 1/4 of it - was pretty excited about the moderation there! Just enough for a snack!) and I succumbed to a coconut mocha frappuccino. It sounded good. It was good. I did choose not to have whipped cream on top, and I enjoyed sipping it. I had about half of it and decided that I was satisfied, so I chose not to drink the rest of it. I'm calling that progress! I wasn't "depriving" myself or pouting over "throwing half a coffee drink away to save calories" or anything of the like. I chose to get it (whether that was a good choice or not), I enjoyed it, and chose not to indulge in all of it.
The same was true at dinner. We had lasagna and garlic bread. I had a small slice of garlic bread, a serving of lasagna, and iced tea. And then they brought out the cheesecake. It would have hurt my aunt's feelings if I'd just said no to the cheesecake, which I emotionally and physically could have done just fine. Instead, I asked if my mom would like to split a piece with me, which she did. I savored and enjoyed it along with the coffee and conversation. And I ate only half of it. Again, not depriving myself, just practicing moderation. It felt good!
At the end of the day, I totaled up my calories - I ended with 1228. My goal is 1200. That's not bad!! I am feeling like calorie counting is beginning to give me some freedom - not the counting in itself, by my changing attitudes about food.
Speaking of changing attitudes toward food, I finished reading Made to Crave. I didn't do the exercises, but just did a quick read-through. What an amazing book! I am looking forward to taking it a chapter at a time and thinking through my own personal issues this month/year. At 18 chapters, I think I will take the next 18 weeks to work through it... Want to join me??
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