... I fall off HARD.
And that's why I procrastinated posting. The day started out innocently enough, with some oatmeal for breakfast and leftovers for lunch. Then I picked Ellie up from Erika's and put her to bed when we got home and... it all came tumbling down.
I ate.
And I ate.
And I ate.
It was bad. I even ate a full bowl of cereal after dinner (that's right - no half cup serving! A full bowl!) and then was so full I felt sick. I deserved it. (The feeling sick, that is.)
But something clicked yesterday. I have been doing really well with my calories, and really well keeping my house clean. I didn't clean up after we got home from the circus, I just came in, dumped everything (it was after 11 when we got home!) and went to bed. So when I came home from scrapping yesterday the house was a mess and I just wanted to keep scrapping while Ellie napped to finish some projects. But clutter in my home translates in my life to body clutter. And in frustration because my home was a mess (I think) I ate. Comfort food. Junk food. And I drank pop, but no water.
Today I feel awful. Physically. Eating poorly just takes a toll on my body. I did clean up the house last night and I could feel all that tension that made me want to eat fade away. It was so weird.
SO... now I know something new about myself and my destructive eating habits, but I had to learn the hard way. I hate it when that happens.
The good news is that I got both kit instructions typed out and emailed to Sheila. That's done. I got 2 more class projects finished (except for one card I still need to finish, but I have to get a few more flowers from the store for that - no big deal) and I sorted out my box at the store finally, since it was driving me crazy having all my pulled papers mixed together!
This morning I have a Mary Kay party to go to, so I'll be heading to that very soon. There will probably be food there, but I am only going to eat what I healthy for me, and I am going armed with a liter of water. I've got to get yesterday out of my system!
2 comments:
Wow! I see a connection between the state of my house and the state of my eating as well. The more I clean, the less I eat, I think because I'm busy cleaning so I'm not bored standing around in the kitchen looking for food to entertain me. I also find that when I have a list of things to do I don't eat because again, I don't have down time where I'm not sure what to do, so I resort to eating. I know that if I am overwhelmed or bored (two opposite extreems I know) then I eat. I have to have the balance in my life or I get into eating trouble. Don't know what emotion triggers it, but something. For me, as much as I resist it, structure! structure! structure! is the key to success in so many areas. Ugh! I hate that, but I guess I live with it and praise God for it anyway!
Yep. When I am overwhelmed, I eat. Not so much when I'm bored. But structure is the key to keeping everything in balance for me as well. House cleaning, meal planning, eating right, being a good mommy to Ellie... when I am structured in one area I seem to do better in all the others and they all fall into place. Same if I get OUT of balance in one area, like my housecleaning yesterday. Eek.
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